Memories

It's been a long time since I smiled.
All my life I'm waiting,
I don't know, why I persist doing this
When I can move on and keep going.
But I won't deplore alle those years
When I think of you every night.
Even shedding those bloody tears,
And all I need is a hug sop tight.

I tried to stay away from you
Even trying to hate you.
I know I'm being hard on myself
Yet it's the right thing to do.
I started to admire other guys,
And sse the rest of the world.
But I cannot Live a life full of ties,
For I thought it's you even when I grew old.

And suddenly I grew tired.
So helpless that I cried.
I don't want anymore pain
O God, I think I'm going insane!

And finally I realized something -
Life isn't only crying.
To move one, I have to let go.
These feelings of mine for you to grow.
"It's not the end of the world, my dear", Mum said to me.
There are so many things around you that you must see.
Now everything seems fine.
I learned to accept facts and wait for the right time.
And it makes more happy to do so.
You've been so special that it's hard to let you go.
I know forever in my heart you'll always be here.
but only to remain as a cherished memory.

[Joan Vivien Dela Cruz]